Monday 27 May 2013

press reset

This is my second attempt to write a blog. When I started this blog in 2011 I had no idea in which direction it would go and there are seriously so many blogs out there that I really didn´t know how it would go on. I could say that life got in the way so I didn´t continue writing after a few post but honestly I guess I was just lazy or unmotivated. Which looking back now is exactly the wrong thing to do because when you start a blog you have to keep going and going until, if you´re lucky, your little space on the internet gets noticed by some and maybe more people. Well as you see I was not patient enough and stopped investing time and almost forgot about it.

But since a couple of weeks I have been thinking about starting again quite frequently and I think I am ready to do it now. Maybe also because there are some major changes about to happen in my life and I think those are quite the right circumstances to give this another go.

So I thought I´d start with a little recap:


I´ve graduated-
This is what I have anticipated yet feared the most since the last 5 years.
I mean obviously you´re over the moon that school is over!! but I am also not sure if I am ready to leave it all behind just yet. I´ve made the most incredible friends, went partying every weekend and looking back didn´t really have a lot of responsibility.
Well now I do because I need to take my life into my own hands and actually get up and make decisions. It is not like I was sitting at home the last 13 years of school and let life float by but I feel like now it is time to truly grow up.

I also went on vacation...
...you know to congratulate myself for graduating



I am moving-
Believe me up to now I have only been saying it but writing it down is a whole different story. Pretty scary stuff since I am not just moving into another apartment but into a new city approx. 270 kilometers or 2 1/2 hours away from home. Imagine me sitting in front of my laptop with crazily shaky hands and multiply that by 1000 to imagine my mother´s reaction.

There are quite a lot of things I am scared of, first of all the most important thing to me is making new friends and wether I am able to do that. I can´t imagine a time when I didn´t know anybody but over there I don´t. And I am biting my nails of because of that. Now people tell me that everything is going to be fine and that once I am there it is going to be the most amazing time of my life but right now I am not so sure about that.

Secondly, finding an apartment has been far from easy. Generally the housing market in Germany and its big cities is almost empty and not really affordable so finding my own litttle space has been really really diffucult which has not at all soothed my general fear.



However, I am excited. Obviously. I am not like jumping up and down because I am moving into one of the most beautiful and my personal favourite city in Germany, the excitement in more like inwards - but it is there.

Directions-
I feel like I should tell you in what direction I would like my blog to go.
I do not want to start a blog that it solemly about one topic like fashion or beauty, whilst those things do really interest me. I would like to have a place where I can share parts of my life from every differnet angle.

I guess in modern blogger language you would call that a lifestyle blog.
I really wanna try to have as many pictures on this blog as possible however I don´t yet know if I am quite ready to post pictures of myself and all - I might have to build that up over time to get more comfortable with it. Having said this I have been dreaming to buy a really good camera for a while now and I think I might do that with my first wage.

Good Night:D